Plzz help me Which excerpt from "Escape" adds to the theme that the speaker can see herself differently than others see her?

I look inside me and I don’t see it
I don’t see the power
The confidence you say I have
I wait anxiously
Feeling my stomach
A block of ice
Avoid conflict
Watch my rainbow
And let you watch yours
I must take this test just like everyone
Takes tests
I am closing in on the sky